[Truth Seeker]

I am sure, that most members in this forum must wonder why I do so much research, the answer is simple, I cannot find what I am looking for any other way.

One of the most complex aspects of my RSD have been and are, gravitation and pull.
Almost immediately after my surgery, I began to feel strong pulls in my toes, both sides of injured foot, back of heel and top of foot, but the pull stretched everything to the bottom center of foot, where I could feel twisting and folding.
This center on bottom became a big knot and out of this knot I could feel a lot of high speed spinning, as this continued, pressure in my foot became unbearable, everything was getting tighter and tighter and than I felt this pull on the left side of knee, the circle of spinning was getting larger and larger, but I was terrified when I began to feel this pull in my hip and groin, I could literally feel free falling down the right side of leg, being pulled under the foot to once again meet in the center, where the spinning was now going out of control.
To explain this in a different way, think of a large spool we would find in a hardware store, a spool full of metallic chains, if we were to tuck on the end of the chain, the spool would release the weight of the chain through quick rotations and the chain would fall onto the floor and create a large pile.
This pile is comparable to the knot on the bottom of my foot.
This kind of gravitational pull was getting worse and worse until I no longer felt human.
My bones felt as if being crushed, my organs felt as if being strangled, but my biggest fear was the pressure on the top and back of my skull.
I wrote about this "pull" and high speed spinning for many years, but no one appeared to know what I was talking about, which left me all alone in my fight for my life.

Truth Seeker

[plumb bob]

Hello hello,

Been pretty down lately. Didn't want to project any ill vibes. I can feel those
little sphincters in the cappilaries, that open and close. They set off all these vibrations,
that drive me crazy. There is not enough blood in the body, so they open and close
in a pattern, all over the body. My leg is off pattern. Pieces of foot appear to be dying.
I know it is a circulation issue, caused by me. No real fix for it.
When I try to rest, it feels like I am falling. Sometimes my leg jerks, which hurts alot.
Sorry if I can't exactly hit on the subject. Yet, you are not alone. Sometimes my whole
leg feels "dizzy". Spasms cut it short, quickly. I blame it on oxygen, and calcium. Why won't
my blood put minerals in this leg? Blood works everywhere else!
An interesting thought...Locusts. They go through physical changes, when population levels
get out of hand. Along with many other insects, and an occasional mammal. Changes.
Just a thought, but, may be an introverts response to overpopulation. Tool kit genes,
previously dormant, could cause mutations. Although, this shant lead to prevailence,
my genes did it on purpose. Lemming me not.
I can feel the sun rising. AND, the moon is ALWAYS full. Not just when light hits it.

[Truth Seeker]

Hi there,

I kind of figured that you were down or going through some rough spots and it is wise to refrain from writing at times like that.
The vibrations truly can be very distracting to say the least and I most certainly know about circulation problems which affected my toes very badly, in fact I was told, that my toes would never return to normal, because they had bent and become to stiff, but guess what? doctors were wrong again.
My toes may never be as normal as they used to be, but even if my healing stopped right now, I would be very happy with the outcome.
I know what you are talking about when you say, when you are trying to rest, it feels as if you are falling.
In my humble opinion, this has to do with your lower back, it feels as if the surface we are laying on is disappearing, hence the feeling of falling.
Dizziness and nausea are caused by "spinning" the first two will stop at some point, but the spinning will continue, in my case, the spinning has not stopped in over thirteen years, not even for a "second" but at least it is no longer throughout my entire system.
If, the spinning stopped at this point, I would be very concerned, because it would mean that my healing stages are over and I would have to live with the results, but for as long as it continues, I am grateful, even when it is difficult to deal with the spinning.

In regards to interesting thoughts....
To the best of my knowledge, human tissue and bones go through changes every fifteen years.

I am not as concerned about overpopulation as I am about people leaving the region of their birthplace, because it will cross to many wires, with overheating consequences.

Your comments about the sun and moon were especially interesting, because in the first few years with my RSD, they had tremendous impact on me.

Truth Seeker

[plumb bob]

Howdy,

I tried to write earlier; however, a transformer blew outside. I get frustrated, when I am a paragraph in, and the computer blips. So many messages wasted. The car finally fizzled out.
The only reason I am concerned with too many people, is that we all have electricity. Much like a shark, I am aware of energies. If sleeping, I know when a lifeform approaches. Kinda cool.
Although, it disturbs me more when awake. Accepting this was the hard part.
I traveled a lot. It gets old fast. All I could think about was the Great NW. May I ask about your location? Washington will always be home. I learned that migratory animals have an actual piece of lodestone, in the brain. I have always been good with direction. I saw a graph showing the differences between north and magnetic north. This made sense then.